In search of myself...

What is in it for me? The constant question in my mind before taking up a task. I don't think I like asking that question but I frankly am unable to give up on it yet. I believe this is the thought in many people's minds and is something I would like to dwell upon. This question is quite dangerous because it could unconsciously cause inaction, or subdued action because the doer at times may not be able to see all the benefits of the action. Also, there is possibility of prioritizing other action with seemingly larger benefits while reality would say otherwise. Disinterest in the benefits while performing the action would help remove far foresight and focus on requisite action. Isn't this what is exactly told in the Gita? Merits and Demerits from an action are not to be thought of as the doer is absolutely in no control of them. What is required is consciousness and devotion to the action to be done and this detachment from the result helps retain poise when result does

We were taught the "scientific" way in school. What did it say? Ask questions!!! Why, what, when, where, which, how... Endlessly, until you are satisfied with the answer. A good way to learn - a really good way. There was probably an implicit message in there that we didn't read. Let us ponder. As a child, we were forbidden from doing many things - for reasons of safety, ethics, tradition, etc. We couldn't talk back or ask questions about them. A revolt was stirring within. There was the urge to break free and run away from all restriction. Anyone that imposed it was the enemy, no matter how near in kith and kin. As we aged and went to higher classes in school / college, that feeling just grew and slowly, it started to show outside. Rank mistrust, disobedience in the name of being more "educated" than our elders fed that ego within and fueled authoritarian nerves. Today, as we age, as we see our children grow and as we impose restrictions on our ch